I once went to the local SMARTRecovery meeting, but as I walked up there was a group of guys smoking cigarettes who looked like survivors of hard living. I decided that I didn't want to share anything with them and left. My therapist and I agree that AA is not for me. So, I am not averse, I just haven't found anything. I really don't want to discuss my alcohol use with any addiction group as it is so intertwined with bipolar. So I talk with my therapist and psychiatrist. I feel like I'm on the right path. I've tried to stop in the past, but I never really wanted to do so. This time, I've made the decision to stop, something I've never done before.