No you are not a failure Purple....not even close.

You were hurting and hurting bad.

You faced your fears and went ahead and signed in to the stabalization unit...

They began to help you...

Your priorites,,some of which are being messed with by your illness caused you to think again...

You left....and now your hurting again...

Nothing here about failure Purple...just a bit of fear...

Let them help you...Let go and let God or your understanding of Him...just let go...this fighting is exhausting you...

With only deep respect and care...

Lenny