I sometimes worry that my untreated/ineffectively treated anxiety and my attempt caused terrible problems in my family. It certainly contributed to the terrible mix but guilt tripping myself instead of forgiving myself just kept that train rolling. IMO the issues still ongoing in my family are more complicated than that and their are things I can do to help others heal but most of the healing can only be done by them. Yes, I agree we have to stop ourselves when we find our emotions are running away because emotions that come from fear and rejection rarely help the situation...

It has taken me a lot of time and reflection to figure out what my meds do for me. I haven't taken my xanax for days and days and have been sleeping better than I ever have before. I credit most of the improvement in trusting in God and forgiving myself. I try to be careful to act in the best way possible (with love and charity) on a daily basis. When I make more good decisions now, the good feelings build.