Maybe it’s just a hard winter. Part of me still has hope that springtime will be better, though I’m no longer sure what that even means. Vaccines will make an impact as long as the rollout is successful and I’m ok with a hard lockdown until spring if that means the NHS won’t get overwhelmed and they can focus on immunisation. I think it’s the uncertainty of it all that gets to me. Zoom sessions are fine, but they’re not enough. I’m jealous of every single person in his life who gets to see him properly....family, partner, neighbours, random people on the street. Why are they allowed access to him and I’m not? It all seems like a cruel joke.

Hugs and strength to you @KLL85. I know how hard and unfair it all is. Let’s hope our pessimism is wrong.