So Sorry to hear about your struggles! Like ALL the other wise members have said better than i could, we can't diagnose people here. Definitely try to visit a doctor or therapist as soon as you can to find out wheter or not you have bipolar or not and Please do keep us updated as we are here to support you so no worries! SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @MaryCat222, your Family, your FriEnds and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!