It's covid, I am unemployed now, I have been through a severely abusive marriage, I am now going through a contentious and rocky divorce with said abusive husband, it's winter and it's the holidays, always a tough time of year for me. I am drinking far more, starting at 11 AM sometimes. I drink through the day and night every other day just to get by.

I know I know.. it's an unhealthy coping mechanism. Please do not advise me to go to AA meetings right now. I will not. I don't want to. This WILL slow down again at some point.

But for now, I've become a drinking fish, and I know I am abusing alcohol immensely right now. I am not proud of it. I am looking to commiserate with others who may be drinking a lot more lately too, as a way to cope?