Messages between us NOW and this evening:

HIM:
Like I said give me a chance, to seek the help you think I need. Understand why what took place did, understand I am sorry and it could and would not happen again. Understand that I do miss you after all this and and even after all of the things u call me and still love you. If you could do these things. Let me get better as you say, give me the chance to move back in a few months and I will help you as a husband should. If not know I love you still and will work with you on the 900.
ME:
You’ve hurt me TOO much.
HIM:
You need to understand true forgiveness and know it couldn’t happen again. I don’t enjoy anything anymore without you
Anything
My life is empty
ME:
I can’t talk about this. I am in tears I have to go
HIM:
I didn’t mean any of those things earlier I was lashing out because I justo unable to get anything but no and unpleasantries due to your anger over this. I get it. But something inside me crying out for you and it’s not weakness it love that goes to my core. I still care deeply for you and wanted us to get the help we need to say what we both have to say
I’m sorry I am now too
Even after all of this it can and would work I know IT
ME:
I have to go. I’m breaking down. I cannot talk to you. Bye.