i don't have a lot to add to what the wise and WONDERFUL @Yaowen has already WONDERFULLY said better than i ever could. i'd simply suggest to perhaps try reading a few self-help books and articles. Things may look hard now but Please do not give up and keep striving for being the best possible person you can be as i am sure you're already WONDERFULLY doing! SEnding many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @annoyedgrunt84, your Family, your FriEnds and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!