Ok - I lost it again on him.

All he said to me was that he agreed with the divorce, and that he doesn't want to be married now to me either.

What got to me was the very quick turnaround in his thinking - he went from begging and pleading in the morning, to I don't want to be married to you either by the afternoon.

So I went bananas on him.

WHY? WHY did this get to me SO much? WHY did this upset me SO much? I am not asking for answers - I am asking myself.

It felt like I got the narcissistic discard all of a sudden, and it hurt me - maybe that was his intention once again - to hurt me? I feel like that's the real truth of the matter. That he said this in order to hurt me further.

I am NOT happy with how I reacted. I basically went ballistic on him all over again.