Tonight is tough. I always hate NYE because it's a reminder of another failed year and I'm sitting here alone while the rest of the world celebrates.

Tonight it is also really sad that both my home country and my current home are showing how selfish people are Parties and fireworks despite the pandemic, violence and risks even though hospital staff are already overworked because of covid.

I want this night to be over quickly. I think I'm just going to crawl into bed alreasy.