I feel like you have to trust him at his word - that he wants a divorce. He has an appt with a lawyer. He is taking steps. I do feel like you are holding onto false hopes. So sorry - I don't mean to be hurtful towards you, I am just being honest. One person alone cannot fight for the relationship - both people have to want it to work, and he doesn't. Sounds like his depression could be in the way. He really should seek treatment for that, but it's not your responsibility. He has to be able to take care of his own problems and issues. I'm so sorry - I am going through a divorce myself right now. It's painful. I feel for you. I really do. I hope others will have some helpful words for you. Best wishes to you.