So Sorry to hear about this situation! It seems like you've been struggling with communication issues whom definitely didn't help either of you with coping with your own struggles. From what you wrote, it does seem like you're UnderstAnding your past mistakes and that you're working REALLY hard to fix them so perhaps it may be worth trying a second chance, perhaps with some Marriage counselling? i'd suggest to talk to him about ALL of this and see how it goes from there as Well as making him UnderstAnd that he also needs to work on himself if he truly wants to make this Marriage work. Please do remember that it takes two to make this work so he may decide to simply go ahead with his divorce and in that case unfortunately there isn't much that you can do so Please don't feel guilty about it! SEnding many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Here we go again, your Family, your FriEnds, your Husband and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!