Well first off, hello. I stumbled across this site while doing research into different disorders for my psych class. It seems interesting so I book marked it. I believe that I have Anti social personality disorder. I have almost all of the symptoms listed on various psychological health sites. Normaly I would not care about what anyone thinks or feels about me, but recently my views, opinions, and attitude has began to hurt and scare those closest to me. I speak of my family.

For most of my life I was bullied without mercy. I suppose the only reason I care about my family is that they were the only friends I had for my years through elementary to grade eight. I blacked out most of my elementary years and slipped into a depression in grade eight. Recently however (grade 11) these memorys have began to come back. I'm regularly having both suicidal and homicidal thoughts. My class time generaly involves spending time fantasizing about killing those who I dislike and torturing those who bullied me. I can honestly say if it was not for my family I would have killed those at school who I find pathetic by now. Now taking into account that my family is worried and troubled by my behavior I believe that I may need therapy. I don't want to hurt my family anymore.

However here is the problem. I have no idea on how to talk to my family about this. As much as I love them, they are not entirely tollerant and given my understanding on their personalitys, they would think a lot less of me if they had this glimpse into my mind. How do I go about asking my family for councelling for a situation such as this.