Yep, I daresay many of us have been in similar life situations. We could all play the "who's worse" game and we could all tell some horror stories that would equal or beat someone else's, but what's the point? It goes with the territory that stuff happened to many people with a dissociative disorder but bottom line is that all dissociative disorders are hard and we all struggle with it.

Why not start trying to find some positives instead of always looking to the "whoa is me" side? Life can suck some days for sure, but maybe you can start writing about something positive that goes on. Seems like that would encourage you more.

It does seem as if there is more going on here freewill. Perhaps some antidepressants and anxiety meds would help. It sure seems like it might be worth a try.

If you don't like your T, fire him. If you don't want to fire him, write stuff out and give it to him so ya'll can work it out.

DID, Dissociative Amnesia, Fugues, Depersonalization, Derealization, DDNOS: They are NOT death sentences. Really they aren't. We are intelligent people. We are creative. We had some yucky stuff happen but look how we rose above it? Our brains dealt with it. We could have been dead.

Best of luck to you freewill. Hang in there.