Only you can know for sure! Perhaps there isn't a specific moment that you realize you're "better" but more of a gradual thing. Those things you've mentioned are already excellent, i'd add to remind yourself that you're beautiful and special each day by listing all the POSITIVE things you did and/or said during the day! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @princesscookie19, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!