I want to start by saying by no means have I lived up to all the vows said on my wedding day over 22 years ago. However, I always believed it would be death do us part. My wife has decided otherwise. Neither of us have been happy the past few years. It took her wanting to end it, for me to realize what I was losing. I was/am willing to put in the work to save the marriage but as we all know, one putting in the work doesn't work. The divorce is imminent and I can't bring myself to accept it. The depression is so unbearable at times. I have gotten so low that I have gone over in my head what I would write

It wont get to that point as I could not do that to my kids. I know that time is ultimately the only thing that will ease the pain.
It does bring a little relief being able to read others situations and knowing I'm not alone.