Rose, you accomplished this:
A nurse's aid who had helped me care for him in the last month of his life needed a vehicle, after hers was in an accident. I lent her my bf's car.
You have a good heart and deserve credit for this. Whenever I help people out, I never assume I will get back what I gave. The vehicle served your bf, then the nurse's aid, it's OK if that is all it did. Both new and old vehicles are wrecked all the time and many times, it wasn't the person's fault. They were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. Right after getting a Subaru (really love how Subaru's drive), I let my son take it to an audition. He was hit from behind (the vehicle was totaled but he was OK) and it was not his fault. I guess I just was not meant to have that car. So many thing happen in this life that are not our fault. I know you are struggling because the car reminds you of him. Hugs.