hi this is my first post.
i don't know what forum to post this in so i ill just post it here. it also feels very weird typing this.
i have been looking up different kinds of phycological stuff for a while now. i started off thinking i have anxiety. i never say a word to anyone that i don't know. and everyone always thought i was just shy. but i don't always have anxiety, sometimes i feel perfectly comfortable and still just hate talking. the only people i talk to are close family and bums and prostitutes. i know that a little weird. sometimes i feel like loving life and this is not a disorder but a blessing. but theres times like now where i think i might be depressed. i don't know how depression is suppose to feel like.

recently its gotten real bad. none of my friends call me anymore because i always make up excuses not to hang out. one of my friends that i grew up with is having a birth day party today and im not going. the best times that i have are when im alone drinking steeling %#@&#!. i asked my mom to go to a therapist but she dosent wanna go. its getting so bad when ever girls make eye contact with me i get very angry. im also angry about cameras police and money. i just got this tornado in the pit of my stomach and i think im ganna loose it.

i dotn know why i would put all this on the internet, the gov gathering information on me is on my mind all day. idont know what else to do.

can someone diognoss this as schizotypal PD??