My divorce was finalized in March. I was undiagnosed bipolar disorder 1. I cheated on him multiple times, I got him fired from his job, I put him through hell. He was my person. I have been trying to get back together with him but he can’t even commit to the possibility of trying to work it out. He is cold and unloving which I deserve but it kills me hurts me beyond words. When I tell him I can’t do this anymore he always gives me a shimmer of hope that we may be able to work it out. He tells me it’s none of my business what he does, he refuses to friend me on fb. I’m his dirty little secret that he even has anything to do with me. I messaged the man I had an affair with as a friend for advice and my exhusand found out and is irate. I don’t know what to do. I have no family no friends no support whatsoever.