Sorry to hear about this. You had worked very hard for your boyfriend and did a great job of it. Caretaking for someone not very well is challenging. There were times when I had a "delayed reaction" to grief, from those in my family who had passed away. The delayed reaction felt stronger than when the deaths happened.

Sorry about your car, too. There had been times when I had very strong grief from losing "things" also. Sometimes the things I lost felt stronger than the people I lost.