So it's one step forward, two steps back for me right now. I have my better days and my worse days. When I have a good day, I am distant from him and there is no texting. On the worse days, I engage, there's fighting and I get angry and enraged with him all over again.

Today I simply told him to not come to the apartment tomorrow because he's symptomatic and regardless of the test outcome. I also told him I hope his test is negative and that I wish him a full recovery.

I felt it was the best thing to say right now. He cannot say I have no heart. And I do have a heart and genuinely hope he doesn't have covid and that he does recover. His symptoms right now are concerning, IF they are true.