Well, Aviza, if you feel like taking bigger steps and it is something that you truly wish to do, i'd give it a try. Perhaps consult with your therapis/pdoc before making any decision. i am not sure how things work but even if you go off disability, can you get it back once you understand that you don't feel ready yet? Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Aviza, your Family, your Friends, your Daughter and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!