I'm quitting my therapy. This entire “turning over a new leaf” was a waste of time and energy! I spent one solid year working very hard on opening up and socializing. I thought I managed to connect to others, people started to show me sympathy, but the only thing I liked about it was admiration and attention I’ve been given in the meantime (as ALWAYS). Those are the only two things that spark life inside of me. I couldn’t care less about people’s sincere sympathy. I met good people who treated me better than I could imagine. I have nothing against them. It’s just meaningless to me. I’m done.

Thanks to some of you who replied to my previous messages. It was the first time I had ever spoken about my problems “in public”. Your input actually meant something, I’ve learnt a lot.