I have signed separation papers in May, bought new apartment and moved out. We have 5 years old daughter who that wants us to be back together. My ex seems to want to fix out problems and is intensively working on himself (for the first time) by going to therapy, reading and self reflecting. At the same time he is dating three new woman and is very much interested in one of them. When I head about it my ego started kicking and I wanted to see if I could have him back. After all, why would we start with new people if we can fix things as he says. I didn’t wanted to work on relationship any longer after I found someone new in October. The new person is so kind to me, I felt in love, but now I am totally confused.
I have no idea what I want and what I feel. I take Lamictal and Fluoxetine and am unsure if this is blocking me from being in contact with my emotions.
I left my husband after 7 years because I felt unhappy and drained for years. I felt that. Have tried everything I could to make our relationship work: talking to him,, psychologists, psychiatrists, taking medicine, talking to friends, family, doing yoga, meditation and self reflection.
I am aware of my inability to have stabile emotions , but I am devoted and honest person. I am afraid to hurt others, to be hurt, to be alone.
Should I give a chance to new nice guy, be alone or try to save my marriage?