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Originally Posted by BreakForTheLight
Tonight is tough. I always hate NYE because it's a reminder of another failed year and I'm sitting here alone while the rest of the world celebrates.
Tonight it is also really sad that both my home country and my current home are showing how selfish people are  Parties and fireworks despite the pandemic, violence and risks even though hospital staff are already overworked because of covid.
I want this night to be over quickly. I think I'm just going to crawl into bed alreasy. |
For me Christmas time won’t ever be a happy time ever since I lost my two granddads, my two grandmas and my dear father at this time. Also I had the confirmation of inadequacy on a NYE. It was a nightmare so I cope with these celebrations as best as I can. It’s used to be so much stress around it and this is the last I need for my health, to be honest.
Before I took these celebrations very seriously and I felt the urge to be happy as the people I saw around me. I remember another touchy moment when my mum told me that my parents didn’t have time to buy our Christmas present (here, in Spain, the ones who bring presents for kids are three kings from Eastern on the night of January, 5th). That night shops are opened until midnight so they can sell last minute presents. When my mum asked me for going to the shops to choose the present I wanted, the Heaven fell down on my head. I thought, oh well, tomorrow morning I won’t have presents to unwrap like other kids have. It was so disappointed. I was a kid.
You are not alone, honey. I know it’s hard. Especially when you have to be stuck at home because of the pandemic and you don’t have a choice to celebrate or not.