i dwell in the past a lot .. but when im back there i get stuck back there dredging up and rehashing over and over and .. the times and how and who the people are that i got all my old wounds from.
wondering , if karma has caught em yet and if so how badly it has and sending "vodoo vibes" to karma to kick em harder and make things worse on em...
wondering how to track em down, dreaming up elaborate plots of how to get my revenge...
once something has triggered me to go back there, all the wounds open back up like happened this morning, all the emotions erupt right back fresh as new , i can not stop any of it it just all of the sudden happens and here i go again..
it takes quite a long time before im able to settle myself back down afterwards sometimes its weeks before im over it.