First of all, So Sorry for your Loss and Happy New Year to you! The decision of whether or not you want to engage with them is ultimately up to you. If you feel like there is no chance of things improving then perhaps it would be best to see them as little as possible, perhaps only around holidays and such. i'd suggest to discuss this with your father and let him know that you're feeling frustrated about ALL of this. Make your voice heard. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @DazedandConfused254, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!