Ok, I need some support around this particular issue:

I know I do not have to worry about this yet or right now, but I am worrying about it. My husband and I met through our local music scene, of which we are both a part. We share a large social circle of music-loving friends.

There is now only one bar left open in the area where we used to see live music. IF they remain open, this is the bar where we first met.

I am dreading the re-opening phase of bars when we can hear live music indoors again. I am dreading seeing my husband in public places where we used to go for music, especially at the bar where we first met, which is relatively SMALL.

I've had to deal with this before with an abusive boyfriend I had who is also a part of my music scene. After he and I broke up, I became very anxious every time I ran into him at the music venue we frequented.

I am anticipating the same level of anxiety and angst over seeing my husband out. I am already very anxious about it, and it's not even happening yet!

I am probably the ONLY person who wants the re-opening to be delayed for many months still. I do not want to have to face seeing my husband frequently in public.

Now I know the obvious answer would be: DON'T go to that bar! BUT, I am STUBBORN. I do not want to feel shoved out of my own local music scene in order to avoid running into him. But that particular bar - where we first met - is loaded with memories of him, and it's the ONLY music venue left that is still operating within that neighborhood.

I suppose I am just dreading the post-divorce social scene fallout and what this will look like for me/us. I am DREADING it.

Again, I know I don't have to worry about it now, but it's on my mind and it's really bugging me.

HOW do I get over this anxiety and dread?