Hi All,

Getting closer to my goal of one year. But I still want to self harm! Who would have thought it would be this hard even after almost a year. The call of the blade is too strong. Siren's song. It calls me to it. I know that I can't. If I did I would likely end up back in the hospital and I don't want that. But sometimes the thought of just self harming is so intense. I'm physiologically and emotionally addicted to it Pastor T says. It takes a long time I guess to break this addiction. Even though my arms look really good right now....sometimes I still long for messed up arms. I've got to be nuts. HUGS to anyone who wants one, Kit