No he isn't. I suggested it last night, and once again he turned it down.

I'm in so much pain. I love him, hate what war has done to him. I spent the last day helping him through insomnia, anxiety and depression, but no progress.

His lawyer appointment is today. I've prepared myself for the conversation but he didn't bring it up. I hate this place in my head right now, feeling desperate and pathetic, like a dog that veg's for scraps.