Dear Have Hope,

That sounds like such an undesirable position to be in, being pulled in two directions by your need for a job and the availability of a job that seems like it will make you unhappy. I wish I had some great insight or wisdom to share but sadly I am a loss. In my own life I have often been driven into jobs that were not only not right for me given my personality and character but which were mental ordeals, so my heart goes out to you. It would be great if something that suited you turned up. I am so very sorry I am unable to be helpful to you!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen