i am not sure where i am at. Session today, i dont know. In my head i want and do tell you that this is no longer working for me, but I cant say it. I am not even sure that when an authorization is approved that i will be excited or even care. I feel that I am definately 2 faced or living in 2 different worlds. I really feel apathetic and depressed. and also the mask I am wearing to hide it presents. I am not sure I found session today helpful. I felt like you asked the right questions at first but just was not getting it. Also think that I am expecting to much from you. I feel confused. I tried tell you that in text and no response. I get it your busy and all, but i really wanted a response. I really could use a hug from you. That is not something that i often want either.