I was not diagnosed with bipolar disorder 1 by a psychiatrist. I did not self diagnose. I was full blown manic and completely paranoid when he was fired. I did not know what I was doing but that must just seem like an excuse since it was said that I am abusive to others. I was seeing a therapist until recently when I relocated. I don't have any support system. My mother and sister do not speak to me and my father and step father are dead. I lost all of my friends in the divorce. He has been helping me from time to time. Is adultery something that cannot be forgiven? I didn't do it just to have a good time. I have unresolved issues from my childhood sexual abuse by multiple men and a mother who did not love me and blamed me for the abuse. I am trying to work through my issues and am currently taking multiple antipsychotics and antidepressants.