Day 36 without you.

I dreamt about someone from my old school I haven't thought about in ages. The frequent dreams about my old secondary school have been disorientating if I'm being honest. Maybe it's just because I'm going through something similar. I'm not 14 anymore but almost 30.

I still feel so very sad. A line I got from an audiobook- "It's not about what happened, but also what didn't happen."

Yes I was happy to get a message from you yesterday, but It would have mattered so much more to have that when I was in crisis mode. You weren't there for me and I can't forgive that.