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Originally Posted by BreakForTheLight
I'm heading for another breakdown. I can't deal with the isolation anymore. Finding it hard to motivate myself to do anything at all.
Feel like the world has forgotten about me. I sent a happy new year message to a former co worker and never got an answer. Another former co worker I was hoping to remain friends with also no longer keeps in touch. It's always me texting. Sometimes I get an answer, sometimes I don't. The one person at my new job who I "talked" to the most is leaving for another department next month.
I'm trying to work on my self confidence and self acceptance but the loneliness is killing me. And everyone abandoning me doesn't exactly make me feel very worthy :/
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I'm sorry to read you are struggling with feelings of abandonment.
I too have noticed people often don't get back to me, or at least not in a timely fashion. I think the whole situation has affected how we all relate to each other. People have often retreated into their own worlds. It isn't a measure of your worth, rather they themselves are preoccupied.
I myself have noticed I have retreated a little. It's that I feel I don't want too much closeness, perhaps because it actually takes a lot of energy to be positive and I feel like with others I ought to be positive and not bring them down. It's not because I don't care about others, or value them. It's easier to write here because it's anonymous and I feel I can be honest rather than trying to be positive when I'm not feeling it.
I hope writing here helps you too.
It will get better, it's rocky for many of us right now though. Take care.