Throughout every day things remind me of my past, especially when I screwed up and hurt people because of BP. It hurts my head and is getting out of hand, assailing me constantly. My therapist and I are trying to figure out how to get this to stop. She says I must forgive myself. I think I am angry that I have bipolar - a recent insight. She's going to help me learn mindfulness and detachment from these thoughts. I really cannot take it! Does anyone else feel this way?