I feel the same. I keep trying to ''move on'' from flashbacks, intrusive thoughts, etc. But they are part of my ''illness'' I suppose Things do remind me of past pain... I wish they didn't. I don't have answers except for the usual advice. I think EMDR helps some people if they have a dual diagnosis. I'm glad you have a therapist who listens, that is invaluable. Also I think DBT helps some people (not just people with ''borderline''... mindfulness is part of that. I've been trying to learn mindfulness on my own (have not found a supportive therapist and the tele''health'' thing doesn't help, I wouldn't like that and would make my anxiety worse) I think we do need to forgive ourselves, for not being perfect....everyone messes up especially when in a lot of pain.