I was once told by my sponser that us drug addicts are the most self centered people created, and I agree. In active addiction, all we ever did was try lieing, stealing, and deceiving to get what we wanted when we wanted it. It was our way or no way... I think regardless of how long we've been sober/clean, we'll always have a little bit of that self centeredness.

I take my recovery very seriously, every once in awhile I'll crack a joke here and there but I know the joking and kidding around doesn't take place of the real issues. What keeps me clean each day is keeping the things that happened while I was using and drinking fresh on my mind... If I start to forget the feelings and experiances, I don't know how I'd be able to stay clean.