I am not reacting well to him though. The other day when he completely ignored my questions for hours on end and was passive aggressive with me, I went ballistic.

I am not proud of myself for how I react sometimes out of anger, frustration and pain.

Today is a brand new day though. I can learn from my mistakes - that's all I can do. Is try to be better with each new day. It's like wiping the slate clean and starting over again. That's how I view it.