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Originally Posted by BreakForTheLight
I'm heading for another breakdown. I can't deal with the isolation anymore. Finding it hard to motivate myself to do anything at all.
Feel like the world has forgotten about me. I sent a happy new year message to a former co worker and never got an answer. Another former co worker I was hoping to remain friends with also no longer keeps in touch. It's always me texting. Sometimes I get an answer, sometimes I don't. The one person at my new job who I "talked" to the most is leaving for another department next month.
I'm trying to work on my self confidence and self acceptance but the loneliness is killing me. And everyone abandoning me doesn't exactly make me feel very worthy :/
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Here, we are facing to more restrictions after Christmas but it won’t be as the totally lockdown we faced to last Spring. This was so terrible hard. We had to stay at home and we weren’t even allowed to go out to do exercise. Not living the best time because of my issues and this terrible cold weather, either and I have my hopes on the next Spring, being different and lively, conversely to the previous one.
Said that, go on your situation. You’re valuable. It’s objective. I know we need some validation from the outside but the main will come from yourself.
I know it’s a tough situation but probably this coworker of yours who didn’t reply your message, doesn’t deserve your attention. Unless (s)he is shy ir have AvPD or going also through problems, (s)he doesn’t deserve your attention.
Had a deeply discouraged conversation with an ex-coworker, now my friend, and it was about how superficial relations among coworkers may be.
I’m sure there are exceptions to the rule. I don’t understand why it is like that, either but it seems it’s right.
Focus on your friends from your place of birth country and those people who return your messages, also people you know online and you see are worthy.
Don’t forget that there’s nothing bad in you. There are many people who also feel alone and what it’s worse, they feel alone while being around people. The culture we are immersed in, favours this.