Wow. Thank you for posting this, Mm. I do the same thing, but I never had a word for it. I know that a lot of T's tell us that one way to feel better is to "act as if." Maybe that works for a few people (maybe). I get caught up in it, though...I was conditioned to act "as if" things were normal in my childhood home when the truth was that it was a freak show.
Anyway, I hope someone here has ideas about this, because I'd like to know, too.
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