Candybear
I'm sorry you were treated that way, but OMG that was hilarious! Looks like you stumbled into an S&M support site.
I have plenty of friends whose lives have been turned upside down by diabetes. My mother had diabetes, and I used to give her insulin shots. Hers was very much under control with insulin and diet, but I know it's not that easy. Her life had to revolve around food, with everything calculated, yet she was not able to eat the foods she wanted. Seemed like a cruel trick of nature to me.
I benefited from her pain. I learned to appreciate and respect food. She used to tell me "you should HAVE a diet, not be ON a diet - and moderation is the key." She taught me that food is fuel, and to focus on it's performance rather than taste. As a result, I learned to love broccoli - though I still can't stand lima beans.
I hope you'll be able to savor the foods you are allowed to eat in the amounts allowed, to the point where it's no longer in the forefront of your mind. I hope you'll be able to fall into a rhythm of maintaining your blood sugar without as much interruption to your life. Most of all, I hope you'll be able to maintain your health for as long as possible.