Hey @wolftrap I really identify with you. I too have screwed up considerable due to bipolarII ( when I was non compliant with meds) and alcoholism (8 years sober) I have made amends and am compliant with medication and everyone has forgiven me but if I think to hard about it i will start to cry again. I think we have to take our families at face value if they say they have forgiven us or accept our amends but its so hard. I believe one of the hallmarks of bipolar is regret for our episodes.
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Originally Posted by wolftrap
Throughout every day things remind me of my past, especially when I screwed up and hurt people because of BP. It hurts my head and is getting out of hand, assailing me constantly. My therapist and I are trying to figure out how to get this to stop. She says I must forgive myself. I think I am angry that I have bipolar - a recent insight. She's going to help me learn mindfulness and detachment from these thoughts. I really cannot take it! Does anyone else feel this way?
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