I'm having a really hard day. My therapist left to another practice and I decided to not pursue therapy with him right now because I received a huge bill from the health organization that I cannot pay. I decided I will rely on my abuse advocate for counseling right now. And my best girlfriend is unavailable and out of town for the next two weeks. We talk every day, or we were talking every day. She was like my rock through this. And I am missing him today. I wish I weren't. I suppose it's going to naturally come up, but I don't want to miss him at all. He's wearing me down with his love bombing. I am lonely and feel very isolated. I feel weakened. This sucks.