I really really wish we had worked more with touch before Covid happened. I know I can’t expect it now, with social distancing, but I feel sad that you never offer to touch me or for me to touch you. I feel confused that you don’t think that would be the most healing thing for me. I don’t feel like it’s possible for any touching to be misinterpreted, my need for it is pure.

I feel like a child that has to beg for love and touch from their parent, while knowing the parent doesn’t want to love or touch me. I’m done begging and expecting and asking. I really hope you are ok, it’s unlike you to take another holiday so soon.