It seems like you're aware of your mistakes and that is commendable. However, whether or not your Wife wants to stay with you is ultimately up to her. The only thing you can do is to Hope and Pray that she will change her mind and show her that you REALLY want to change. i Hope and Pray that your guilt is sincere and that if that is the case she will give you another chance. Please keep us updated. God Bless You both. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @DEVOTEDHUSBAND, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!