Find your old posts or your old journals or anything you can think of about the issues you faced with this man as early as before of right after marrying him. It will remind you that this is not and will not be a healthy relationship as it was never that. Also him constantly dragging you in is keeping you off balance, unable properly search for a job and focus on the right things, seem to do the trick. There is no need in this communication and ruminating. If you get back with him you’ll be right in the same post soon enough. It’s not even the issue of cheating.

There was an issue after an issue from the day one, just after few months of dating there were big fights and things were not peaceful. Things will continue to be unstable as you engage with him. He doesn’t believe you are done because you engage.

Of course you do what you see fit but he might actually like keeping you unstable and unsure.