Jello,

I'm glad to hear you are no longer feeling like you are an emotionally numb zombie, but sadden to hear that you are now struggling with intense emotions. I hope you find a happy medium soon!

I don't know what the issue is that you are unable to talk about with your T. But I can relate to your stress over not being able to talk about it. Although I've made some significant progress in raising issues in therapy that I thought I could never talk about. However, I still have a major issue that is causing me a lot of anxiety and mental noise. I simply cannot form words to explain it. I just keep hoping that like some of the other issues, I will eventually have a break through at some point.

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..walking away without taking the risk is better than what i would suffer if i took it and things did not go as i need them to

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I do not have this issue however. This sounds like a really tough place to be.

I hope you can find some way to get what you need from someone else. If this is not possible then I hope you can work through this issue so that 1) you can find another way to achieve what you want, 2) you can find something else to replace it, or 3) you can make not having [i]it [/b]more manageable.