ty lyn. i'm ok. safe. urgers are there but gel coated. or lexapro coated. today royally sucks... didn't get called for work. can't seem to get my loan. can't get ins back, can't get out of bed - what's the point!? took an hour for a service to be canceled.... i need things to turn around, get better. go right. no more triggers, no more crap. called t about ins - they said "i want you to go to your appnt". i don't know if i was relieved or not. i'm ready to give up and stop caring. ready to stop trying to make things better. ready to hibernate until next.... year? life? till things go right.