Thank you so much for your supportive and kind words @AzulOscuro

Oh my so many going through so much right now - I feel numb. I spoke to my sister by phone last week and she feels numb.

We hit record deaths today nationwide. It is following the horrific high infection rates of several weeks, there is always a lag. It's a mixture of Christmas mixing and the new Kent variant which is more contagious. The health service is struggling, the staff are struggling. I'm just staying home when I can. I walk or jog where it's quiet alone.

I do better at work but there are risks involved, although I am careful and wear a mask - I work in a supermarket. My job has kept me sane.

Trying to keep hope, they are opening vaccination centres and moving to 24/7 appointments. I just want my vulnerable H to get his asap. Mine won't be until later this year but I am unlikely to get very sick and die.

How do we heal from this. I feel like we will need to honour the dead and health workers.